"To live content with small means;

to seek elegance rather than luxury,

and refinement rather than fashion,

to be worthy, not respectable and wealthy not rich;

to study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly,

to listen to stars and birds, to babes and sages,

with open heart, to bear all cheerfully, 

to all bravely await occasions, hurry never.

In a word to let the spiritual unbidden

and unconscious grow up through the common.

This is to be my symphony."

William Henry Channing

I suppose you all want to know what I'm doing with my free time. No? Well I'm going to tell you anyway. Two main things have taken over my life.


1. I'm having hilarious conversations with my self. True story. And I know they're not hilarious. I think I might be going a little crazy.


2. I'm writing a comic book, or more correctly I'm writing the beginnings of a comic book. There is no way I could get it done before I leave. I've been geeking out for a solid week and a half. seriously. Here's are some pictures to prove it. 

The Jade Duchess is going to be so awesome. She is of course going to be uber fashionable. I'm thinking...yeah I'm way too excited about this. Maybe I should find some friends to hang out with.

3. I just found this totally awesome blog and I'm going to start getting crafty with clothes... clothes that I can take on my mission obviously. Although I think I might make a pair of those pink grandma pants that she has made. She's brilliant I tell you. The only problem is she's from Provo and for some reason or other I am really not liking Provo girls right now. Especially zoobs. No offense meant to any of you out there, especially my good old friends. I just...yeah it's a difficult thing to explain. Let's just say another oddity I've acquired from my lack of friends.  

4. I'm so excited for my mission. Oh my goodness. I'm finally past half way there and it's going to be so great. I can't wait to leave. Also I really should be studying and getting ready. I'll start tomorrow, right?

5. I'm working. It's pretty dang exciting if you know what I mean. 

6. I'm experiencing a loss of appetite. Let's blame it on the Hepatitis A&B vacs that I had to get. Don't worry, I'm not going through an eating disorder or anything like that...or maybe I am? Who knows? Because I sure don't, but I do know and I can tell you that I'm not. 

7. I'm going to be playing on a BYU intramural team. Dang, I had better come to terms with my zoob hatred/zoobphobia before I start playing so I don't get banned from the league.  

8. Spanish Fork league is going well. I'm on a new team now. Not my High School team. Did I ever blog about that? I don't know. At the beginning of the summer I was playing with the girls from HS and it was great. We took the championship. This season there was some miscommunication and I joined another team. Which is good because now I'm meeting all 

kinds of new people...they're just all married with kids, or most of them are anyway.

9. I'm trying to mentally prepare for my farewell. I haven't given a talk in church since...oh young womens...? Over 3 years ago. 

10. And now I'm going for a small bike ride with my best friend Brin who is still here, thankfully. 

Courage, Honor, Loyalty, Sacrifice. You're braver than you think.

Yes, I know it has been a very long while. Life has just been super busy. 


My mission papers have been in for a week. 


My team won the Spanish Fork women's league championship. 

I have a new nephew, Nikolas Cannon Jensen. He is just so adorable. 

My sister got married and I made her bouquet.  I'll have to post a picture when I get one.

I can't get a job for the life of me. Apparently nobody wants to hire a soon to be missionary. 

Brin and I bought baby octopus on our first trip to Winco.

I made a four layer german chocolate cake for Father's Day.

I got the worst sunburn of my life last week...it peeled layers. It was terrible.

I'm living with Brindley this summer. We have a pretty sweet pad in my parents barn. We don't have many toys around so my niece plays with my rain boots.

I made Captain America cookies for the fourth of July.

Some of them came out a little vintage. Just how my dad likes them.

When Captain America throws his mighty shield,
All those who choose to oppose his shield must yield!
If he's led to a fight and a duel is due,
Then the red and the white and the blue will come through,
When Captain America throws his mighty shield!"

Oh and my sister Emily is moving out here in a week which means my nephew will be here too! 

I Want...

I want a tan trench coat

Like the ones models wear

I want a chocolate chip cookie

Fresh from the oven

With some vanilla bean ice cream

Melting...ooeygooeyyummy

I want to put my mission papers in already

And I want to leave

I want to feel

Red - the blood of angry men!

Black - the dark of ages past!

Red - a world about to dawn!

Black - the night that ends at last!

Like Les Miserables 

I want something more

To be something more

Then this world

I want to read a book

Just to read a book

I am the Resurrection and the Life,

Saith the Lord:

He that believeth in me,

Though he were dead,

Yet shall he live:

And whosoever liveth 

And believeth in me

Shall never die.

I am the Resurrection and the Life,

Saith the Lord:

He that believeth in me,

Though he were dead,

Yet shall he live:

And whosoever liveth 

And believeth in me

Shall never die.

I am the Resurrection and the Life,

Saith the Lord:

He that believeth in me,

Though he were dead,

Yet shall he live:

And whosoever liveth 

And believeth in me

Shall never die.

I want to go swimming

And feel the sun 

As it burns my skin

I want a new pair of heels 

Black

Or nude

Beautiful either way

I want to be someone

Worthy of epic tales

And how can man die better

Than facing fearful odds

For the ashes of his fathers

And the temples of his gods?

I want to marry a man

Who respects all women

Who is honest

And true 

And brave

And maybe even 

A professional pirate

A man

Who is  different

from all the ramble

That surrounds me

I want to find 

My prince charming already

Is he out there?

The more I see

The more I doubt

I'm tired of the cloying 

Do any of you have feelings?

Do any of you have souls?

I want to say yes...

But your actions say no

Captain America

Anyone?

Where are you?

I want to read poetry

And be a hopeless romantic

I want...

So much

Too much

Maybe

Who knows

Just Another Construction Paper Craft

I love Xavi...Puyol...Pique... Messi...FC Barcelona. Spanish soccer is a beautiful thing. It's a game of passing with eloquence. I have never been so fascinated with a team passing as when I watch the Spanish National team/Barcelona play. It's smooth, quick, easy...they can get in three or four passes where a normal team would only get in one. Xavi. I'm totally in love with him. He is like this calm on the field that I can't get enough of. Xavi, where is Xavi? And I panic when he's not on the field, but when he's there it's like no biggie we've got this game. He's a football romantic and it's the best thing ever. Read one of his interviews and you'll understand (this one is pretty great).  Now Barcelona just needs to get rid of Villa. He's to scrappy of a player. Yeah he's Spanish, but he doesn't play like he is. Sure he gets goals, but they aren't pretty in fact they are usually quite ugly. He plays awkward and I really don't care for him. Fernando Torres on the other hand is a really beauty. If they could get him it would be a whole different story. Also I would really like to see Sergio Ramos out there on their defense. He's another one of the Spanish power houses. The days of Real Madrid are over and the days of Barcelona have already begun.This one goes out to my team FC Barcelona. Congrats on beating Arsenal. And yes, it is hanging on my wall right now.

"It was that or die. I'm a romantic. I like the fact that talent, technical ability, is valued above physical condition now. I'm glad that's the priority; if it wasn't, there wouldn't be the same spectacle. Football is played to win but our satisfaction is double. Other teams win and they're happy, but it's not the same. The identity is lacking. The result is an impostor in football. You can do things really, really well – last year we were better than Inter Milan – but did not win. There's something greater than the result, more lasting. A legacy. Inter won the Champions League but no one talks about them. People discovered me since Euro 2008, but I've been playing the same way for years. It is true, though, that I have grown in confidence and tranquillity. And that comes with success."

-Xavi, On being asked if he was a defender of the Faith, an ideologue

Immortal Horrors or Everlasting Splendors

Last year, around this time, I read a book called Made For Heaven by C.S. Lewis. I would highly suggest reading it. It is very short and extremely stimulating. Here is one of my favorite quotes from the aforementioned (I really wanted to use that word) book:   

"There are no ordinary people. You have never talked to a mere mortal. Nations, cultures, arts, civilizations - these are mortal, and their life is to ours as the life of a gnat. But it is immortals whom we joke with, work with, marry, snub and exploit - immortal horrors or everlasting splendors. This does not mean that we are to be perpetually solemn. We must play. But our merriment must be of that kind (and it is, in fact, the merriest kind) which exists between people who have, from the outset, taken each other seriously - no flippancy, no superiority, no presumption."